HOOK, LINE AND SINKER

"I throw out my heart on a line but I always find that I’m not catching anything, or that nothing’s biting the way I like to be bitten or just nibbled on. It’s not the usual bait I use — like when I was younger, it was all candy and cupcakes or coloring books and crayons and when I got older, it was all subtle sexuality and acting coy, secret admirer letters, and quiet yearning for more, but the reality is that never gets them hooked the way you want them to be hooked on you, the you behind all of that, the heart of the matter, the amount of love you have to give. I guess in the end all I could really do is just keep waiting and hoping that one day the right one will come along and I’ll never have to go fishing ever again."

Old Stomping Grounds

Hot Yoga.

Silly Love.

I Want This Shit FOREVER

Paper Heart

"Life is too short to be wondering ‘what if?”. 
Sometimes you just gotta live and see what happens, 
even if you get hurt. 
Sometimes you can only feel something if you take a risk."

Konstantine

We're Not Friends.

BackUp.

Be Vain.

Impulsive Texts

The Ice Storm

7.7

Cookers.

"You want me to act like we’ve never kissed, you want to forget; pretend we’ve never met , and I’ve tried and I’ve tried, but I haven’t yet… You walk by, and I fall to pieces."
— Patsy Cline

Twister

I think sometimes that my logic is unbalance. I feel like sometimes I need validation from another. Truthfully, I usually get it. I'm not perfect. I think I put in a position to grow up quicker. No, not because of Hairo, (even though that is the easier explanation) but because of everything I went through during my childhood between what is known and things that I've told only a select few. The one thing that I am thankful from Hairo is, its not worth staying mad. Its not worth going to bed crying, you'll wake up with puffy eyes. Which isn't attractive. It's not worth being upset over a situation that is over, because you can't change the past. If you can't move on, if you can't grow and learn, if you sit and complain, what will become of you? If you sit and blame the world, you'll never grow. You'll be the same person as last.

Most people don't like change, or don't understand why the need to grow and change simultaneously. It's life, it's maturity. If you didn't, you would still be the little girl on the first day of school, crying because you were left with strangers. But you walked in, put your coat away, sat next to the friendliest face and prayed to god they would hold your hand through it all. One day, no one will be holding your hand. You'll never be prepared for it and you'll want to run back to the last safety net. But they won't be there. I stopped looking for the next hand to guide me, I put my hands in in pocket and put a strut in my step. Time to face that life is scarier than I could ever imagine and it's full of disappointment. I can live through this life. I can do it on my terms.

You may not like what I say or do but I'm not looking for the approval. I go to bed and I can sleep soundly, knowing I stood my ground. I have a peace of mind, something that made me feel like I won. Life isn't too bad.