Such Great Heights

There's something liberating about when you feel free from your past and the pain of being hurt by someone you so passionately loved. 

I may never love someone else the way I loved you. I know I won't. I'm not looking to replace you.

Yes, I loved you to the end of the world. But, I was careless and couldn't handle the situation. I was a child. I think over the past year, I let you go and finally put you away. While, it's taken me years to even get here, I am here. I always say I'm over you, well this is a process for me. Sorry I can't be like you. But this past year, with the experiences I've had and the people I've met, pieces of you inside of me have faded away. I don't know right now if you're completely gone, but I do know I'm a step closer to never feeling that pain again. 

I don't need to hurt you to feel better about myself. That's something I've learned won't help me. I also don't need to know anything about you, because that's useless. 

I say you were fortunate enough to have an extra person in your life who cared for your well-being, even if you didn't want it. There can never be enough love in the world. 

My biggest accomplish was that I don't care of what you think of me anymore. I secretly wanted you to fall back in love with me. I know that'll never will happen. Not because I don't deserve your love. Because, it simply won't. 

My outlook on life, my poise, my philosophies, my attitude, my appreciate for everything stems from my experience with you. I will be grateful for that, secretly. I look at where my life and ideals were headed, it flabbergast me. I don't think I would have ever gotten off course if it wasn't for that pain caused by our relationship.

So yes, there is a reason for everything. Yes, there is light at the end of the dark tunnel. I was in the darkness for the longest time. A period in my life I'm happy I've lived through. A period that was so dark, it now only feels like a nightmare. Then I entered the shadow of the light and lingered. I didn't want to let go. I put myself through more torture because I didn't know how to do anything else but be in love with you. But then, I felt the warmth of the rays and I finally made my way to the next stage. 

I've never came back from the pain well, because I finally became me.