In My Ears

The Hard Way

Cooke

I’ve thought for a long time that we were going to end up together, so I didn’t really care so much about the when of it. Now, though, the long road is starting to seem like the infinite road.

An Overflow of Words

"And their shape and their hair and their eyes and their smell and their voice. That suddenly, these things can exist and you’re not quite sure how they existed without you knowing about them before."

"And you keep whispering the same story to yourself “I’ll be unhappy now because that’ll make me happy later. Because that’s how a story works.” So your happiness will always happen later, never now. Life isn’t a story. Life is chaos."

"If you’ve got the time, we can play a game. It’s easy. We just see if I’m the same shape as the space you have inside you. If everything fits, we both win. If it doesn’t, don’t force it. That’s how you get splinters in your heart."

Dont Wait

Unregrettable

Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts. Even after it’s over, even through the pain, anyone who has ever really loved will tell you that they never regretted a second of it, no matter how much it hurt in the end. And if you tell me differently, I will tell you that you were not truly in love. ~ April Nizlek

This Never Gets Old

Changes

Other Disasters

"But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life"

I Know I'll See You Again

11 AM

"Seven am;
The garbage truck beeps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about what I've thrown away.
Could I push rewind?
The credits traverse, signifying the end
But I missed the best part.
Could we please go back to start?
Forgive my indecision

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Eleven am,
By now you would think that I would be up
But my bedsheets shade the heat of choices I've made
And what did I find?
I never thought I could want someone so much
'Cause now you're not here and I'm knee deep in that old fear.
Forgive my indecision... I am only a man.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, a day will come when I want off that ride.

Twelve pm and my dusty telephone rings.
Heavy head up from my pillow, who could it be?
I hope its you.

Then again, you're always first when no one's on your side
But, then again, the day has come and I want off that ride."

Incubus has the ability to make me feel better. Think clearer.

I know when I started this that I wasn't going to make the same mistakes. I reached out, because whenever I start to feel something, I think of you. I want, I wish to be okay with you. But I know you can easily fuck with me head. Maybe, one day you won't have that power over me. But, not today. I'm not ruining this just yet. I'm hoping I grew enough, learned from my repetitive mistakes. I'm hoping that I can leave the "old you" behind, embrace what you become, and walk right passed you. I'm hoping that maybe one day I can finally open myself up again, it's getting too lonely being on my own. I'm down with these games, I bow out. Good match old heartache. But you won't win this one.

The Warning

She Knew Her Life Had Pasted Her By

Life Lock

“ There is a heartwrenching listless feeling that comes and you wander through the day, half of a person. I feel like every time I love someone I give them a part of myself and when things end, I hobble around for a while, missing limbs or an eye, a victim in the the long war we call love."

— Anais Escobar, Letters we tuck into drawers and never send; a universal letter to lovers