Yeah, I suck and haven't written in hear since last semester. I'm not in the mood at this moment to update but I swear I'll write down all the shit that went down.
I'm back at school. I'm relatively happy to be here. Except I don't want to go to classes and I missed my first class this morning. I say its excused because I just my period last night and eh I was just feeling overall crappy this week.
Me and Deanna have decided to restart our new year. Starting yesterday. Well I kinda of already fucked up. Mine was to lose the weight and to be better in school. Basically stop being so fucking lazy. We gave each other a deadline for Jan 26 to lose 6lbs. Shouldnt be hard to a determined person. And that's what I need to become. So I'm hoping that I'm only 140 so that would make me 134. But I'm probably more unfortunately.
Why would Gatsby ever want to be with me like that if I'm not even happy with myself?
Shit needs to change. I'm at a standstill. I'm not bettering myself. New Year. 2008 was good to me on the drama level but I didn't grow at all as a person. Nope, 2009 is all about my personal growth. Especially since I'm finally free of the fucked up relationship with Hairo and I can truly say, I'm alone and I don't love anyone right now. I like someone. But whatever. I'm single. This is what I've been waiting for.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
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