The Anger Management

The boys came to visit me this past weekend. It was a lot of fun. I got completely wasted. Which now is getting old. I need to clean myself up. I also came to another conclusion.

I'm over trying to find a boy. I mean I've been doing it for a few months now. I'm over it. Obviously I'm not in a point in my life where I am meant to have a boy. I have to stop trying to force situations from happening. I met Gatsby on whim. I mean nothing really happened there besides getting laid a few times.

I just need to remind myself I can't depend on my happiness on if I have a boy. It's quite sad if I do.

I made a complete ass of myself with multiple guys. This has to stop now. I'm not the shit but I'm not pathetic. 

I'm kinda just kicking myself in the ass over all of this.

I just want to breathe a new chapter in my life.