Starstrukk

Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart

Future Writer

Tell Me EVERYTHING.

Zooey

The Eye Is Creepy

I Thought This Woulda Hurt A Lot, I Guess Not?

Lie About Us.

I don't know why I've been posting massive amount of lyrics lately but, they're speaking for me. Ha, I need drama in my life 'cause I've been pretty boring and it sucks.

I'm caught at a double edge sword, I don't want to see you Thanksgiving break but, I'm afraid how much I actually do want to see your face. I also want to look ridiculously hot and have someone hit on me. Thanksgiving Eve should be interesting...The Bulldog is always...well a good time. I feel like Joey is going to want to go to it, and you will be dragged along. I hope you're not awkward and I hope I'm not drunk to say something I'll regret.

Why is it awkward? Why did it fade? Questions that will haunt me for a few more months hah.

baby, won't you just wait a little bit longer?

Robin Thicke

I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

Tell me how you love me more
& how you think I'm sexy baby
But you don't want nobody else
You don't want this guy
You don't want that guy
You wanna touch yourself when you see me
Tell me how you love my body
And how I make you feel baby
You wanna roll with me
You wanna to hold with me
You wanna stay warm and get out of the cold with me
I just love to hear you say it
It makes a man feel good baby
Tell me you depend on me
I need to hear it

I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

Baby your the perfect shape
Baby your the perfect weight

Treat me like it's my birthday
I want it this way
I want it that way
I want it, Tell me you don't want me to stop
Tell me it would break your heart
But you love me and all my dirty
You wanna roll with me
You wanna to hold with me
You want to make fires and get Norwegian wood with me
I just love to hear you say it
It makes a man feel good baby

I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love ya baby

Cause you will tell me every morning
I'm lost without you.
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love you baby
I'm lost without you
Can't help myself
How does it feel?
To know that I love you baby

Wonderland

we got the afternoon, you got this room for two

one thing i've left to do

discover me, discovering you

one mile to every inch of your skin like porcelain

one pair of candy lips & your bubblegum tongue

& if you want love

we'll make it

swim in a deep sea of blankets

take all your big plans & break 'em

this is bound to be awhile

your body is a wonderland

your body is a wonder (i'll use my hands)

your body is a wonderland

something 'bout the way the hair falls in your face

i love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase

you tell me where to go & though I might leave to find it

i'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it

you want love?

we'll make it

swim in a deep sea of blankets

take all your big plans & break 'em

this is bound to be awhile

your body is a wonderland

your body is a wonder (i'll use my hands)

your body is a wonderland

damn baby, you frustrate me

i know you're mine, all mine, all mine

but you look so good it hurts sometimes

your body is a wonderland

your body is a wonder(i'll use my hands)

your body is a wonderland

Mini Me

Mmmmhm

British Boys!

HUSKIES

Let The Wild Rumpus Start!

I Can't Unlove You

Just because we can’t be together anymore doesn’t mean we have to release the love, the one good thing that was between us.

I learned a long time ago that sometimes love just isn’t enough. It wasn’t for us. Still, I need to believe that love matters, even if it’s not enough to hold together.

Someday, maybe I’ll look back and remember that I once loved you. It’s going to be awhile before that happens though, because right now, my heart just doesn’t understand yet that I’m not supposed to love you anymore

Men Who Are Wrong For Me?

"He was playing all these games, and I...I just didn't know the rules."

Inferno

Today, I had a hard time breathing.

Simple As That

Enchilada

Landslide

When the men betray you -

and they will betray you-

use this as an opportunity to forgive,
as a heightened experience from

which you can make music, write poetry, paint paintings.
Believe me, you will be privy to a world

that’s more vivid than your crayon -
more colorful than those snapshots your father is so fond of.

A place where your creativity is queen.
So plunge in, say yes, fall recklessly in love.

Feel more deeply than your friends do.
Hit the heights, descend into the depths.

Kiss the lads smack on the lips and move on

- like it did.
I survived love and you will too.
— The Lost Girls

Leonard Cohen

I’ll rise up one of these days,
find my way to the airport.
I’ll rise up & say
I loved you better than you loved me.

Wake Up

Somethin' filled up

my heart with nothin',

someone told me not to cry.

But now that I'm older,

my heart's colder,

and I can see that it's a lie.

Children wake up,

hold your mistake up,

before they turn the summer into dust.

If the children don't grow up,

our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.

We're just a million little god's causin rain storms turnin' every good thing to rust.

I guess we'll just have to adjust.

With my lighnin' bolts a glowin'

I can see where I am goin' to be

when the reaper he reaches and touches my hand.

With my lighnin' bolts a glowin'

I can see where I am go-goin

You better look out below!

New York, I Love You

Remember To Breathe

She fixes her lips,
They always look perfect.
Never a smudge line,
never too much.

I try on my blue shirt,
she told me she liked it once.
She wonders what I'll wear.
She knows just what she'll wear.
She always wears blue.

So sneakers or flip-flops?
I'm starting to panic, (wait wait)
Remember she asked you,
remember to breathe.
& everything will be okay.





This song makes me cry. I think Jennie has been effecting me, I've been tearing up more than normal over songs, movies, books...movie trailers. Hah, FML.

My Boys<3

Destiny

Are You Happy?

Fools Rush In

I Can't Stop Thinking About You

"Now I'm tired & I'm scared & wide open
to the rest of my life
& I almost had it all
I'm sick & tired but I'm hoping
that a cure will be found
'cause I can't stop thinking bout you."
-Martin Sexton

"Don’t ever break for someone, who would never bend for you."
— S.E.E.V

"As I look back on all that’s happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me — there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you’ll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold."
— Unknown
(To Hairo)

"I guess I should say thank you, for cutting all my strings. But if it’s all the same to you, I wish you’d left my wings."
— I Wrote This For You

"I don’t know if I should care for a man who made life easy; I should want someone who made it interesting."
— Edith Wharton

Or Didn't Care?

To All The Bandwagoners!

Harvey Milk

"I ask this; if there should be an assassination, I would hope that five, ten, one hundred, a thousand would rise. I would like to see every gay lawyer, every gay architect come out. If a bullet should enter my brain, let that bullet destroy every closet door. And that's all.

I ask for the movement to continue. Because it's not about personal gain, not about ego, not about power... it's about the "us's" out there. Not only gays, but the Blacks, the Asians, the disabled, the seniors, the us's.

Without hope, the "us's" give up. I know you cannot live on hope alone, but without it, life is not worth living. So you, and you, and you, you gotta give em' hope. You gotta give em' hope."

Anytime?

With The Smell Of The Sun

You Got To Give Them Hope

Andy Warhol

“They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself”

"People sometimes say that the way things happen in the movies is unreal, but actually it's the way things happen to you in life that's unreal. The movies make emotions look so strong and real, whereas when things really do happen to you, it's like watching television -- you don't feel anything.”


"The Mexican"

Leroy: "A lot of people are under the impression that you get to choose who you love."


Leroy: "Anyway, it's a loaded question. Look, when two people love each other, totally, truthfully, all the way love each other, the answer to that question is simple, especially in your case. When do you get to that point where enough is enough? Never."
Samantha: "Never."

Samantha: "I have to ask you a question. It's a good one so think about it. If two people love each other, but they just can't seem to get it together, when do you get to that point of enough is enough?"
Jerry: "Never."
<3

Imagination

I Feel A Change Comin' On

Oh, Babay!

When I Look At You...

MF

4

Sing To Me.

P!ATD

My Muse.

I Like Lists

Favorite One

How to be Smarter: Just show up to class. It is not that hard, and, most of the time, you don’t actually have anything more important to to do. Show up, ask a few questions, try to look interested. Once a week stay after class and chit chat with the teacher. This alone–and none of the things I mentioned have anything to do with studying more–can bring your grade up a lot.

How to be Prettier: Precious fall work dress. I would wear with textured tights and patent black heels.

How to be (less) Awkward: I always respect labels–in expensive clothes and in romantic pairings. But I also know that not every dress needs to have a designer label to be your favorite piece, and not every great love needs the boyfriend label to be your favorite relationship.

Direct Experience

'Cause Everything Always Seems To Good To Be True

My friend one time asked me to write a story about my life. (I guess my life is amusing) I mean, to be honest, I don't believe half the shit that goes down. But I know my brain, and I can't formulate long enough thoughts to create a story. Flowing, coherent story. I think in instances and in moments, jumble together and thats how I create my story. This wouldn't be marketable. It definitely wouldn't make the New York Times Best Sellers List.

Snoopy Is Always Right

Quote Time!

"This has got to stop. Yes, it’s tragic that you were in love and it didn’t work out. But you have got to emotionally cut him out of your life and move on. And the sooner the better.“
-Sex and the City


"Oh shut up. Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you hurt, you heal. After darkness, there is always light and you get reminded of this every morning but still you choose to believe that the night will last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good or the bad. So you might as well smile while you’re here."
-I Wrote This For You


"You came along when I needed a savior
Someone to pull me through somehow
I’ve been torn apart so many times
I’ve been hurt so many times before
So I’m counting on you now

Somebody already broke my heart
Somebody already broke my heart

Here I am
So don’t leave me stranded
On the end of a line
Hanging on the edge of a lie
I’ve been torn apart so many times
I’ve been hurt so many times before
So be careful and be kind."
— Somebody already broke my heart, Sade


"Everyone had a forever, but given a choice, this would be mine. The one that began in this moment, in a kiss that took my breath away, then gave it back - leaving me astounded, amazed, and most of all, alive."
— the truth about forever, Sarah Dessen


"Whatever it is you’re seeking won’t come in the form you’re expecting."
— Haruki Murakami

Cudders

i'm on the pursuit of happiness
& i know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold,
hey, i'll be fine once i get it,
yeah, i'll be good

pursuit of happiness,
yeah, i don’t get it,
i’ll be good

The Friend Who Cried.."I'm Sorry"

I don't like to lead a life filled with hate or resentment but I am feeling a little overwhelmed with the bad stuff today. I am thinking about the words "I am sorry".


People think things can be fixed with a simple "I'm sorry". The kicker is that most of the time, this lame explanation comes without any growth or substance from the guilty party. It is simply a way to get out out of being the bad guy. The sad thing is that a mistake is supposed to be something we learn from. We are all human, we are all going to make both big and small mistakes, but to me "I'm sorry" means, I DID NOT realize at the time that this would hurt/upset/cause stress for you and I regret that it happened and I will do my best to not do this thing again. It makes me seriously bummed when I see people making the same mistakes over and over again in life and expecting me to always accept their apology. "Sorry" was never ment to be your trip past go to collect 200 bucks and start the circle again. It is supposed to be starting point for a change in behavior.



I'M ANNOYED. It's not even a big deal, it's the PRINCIPLE. I think that at this time in my life, I am surround by a shitload of bad friends. Friends who are very selfish and generally not good friends. Some not even good people! I'm being poisoned and I have to cut myself loose. I have never been so annoyed over something so small but it an accumulation of things. I can't tolerate it. People need to think about why they're my friends and take a look in the mirrors. As a matter of fact, I'm just done.

This morning, I woke up and felt good. My road to recovery starts now. Once again, I'm the one who needs to leave. It's fine, I love reinvention and self-discovery.

One Day

Never Regret.

Or A Text?

Slow, Love.

"It’s amazing, some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. It changes everything, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they dont know it."

A part of me is definitely "in love" with most of the guys that I've been involved with. It doesn't matter how much time I was with them, I always learn something --- either about myself or how to play the "game." I'm a hopeless romantic at the core, I always remember the smallest detail and hold them close; even if it meant nothing to them. Like, how you said you keep would walk over the bridge I seem to have up...yeah.

Rolling Stone

I need to learn the concept that I don't need to prove myself to anyone. You need to want me before I say one word. Before I knock your over on your kicks, and I will. I got the goods, but are you worth my time? Hesitate? I'll move on.

Don't Stir Me.

I wait. & wait. But there's no one coming. It's a concept I must learn.

HOORAY!

I had about 3 left. I was saving for special times. Now, I will used them up selfishly and stock up. I have to tell Jorina the good news.

Learn To Value Yourself

'Cause no one else ever will.

-from me to me.

If I Got Me, I Won't Need Nobody

Chase This Light

A movie, still-photograph,
Through a martyr's eyes I can see,
I've seen the best of love, the best of hate, the best reward is earned,
I've paid for every single word I've ever said.

Confetti rainfall & the quiet street.
The beauty is in what you make it,
So get up on your feet.

Because tonight, the world turned in me,
Because right now, I don't dare to breathe.
Oh, babe, I know, it's alive & somewhere for us to find tonight,
chase this light with me.

Mimi

Not Necessarily

Time passes. Pain fade. --- Not feelings.

Oh Canada.

I miss her. When I talk to Carrie, she helps me put things in perspective and not the sweat the small stuff. She also not fake so she's definitely one to tell me how it is. She's one of those people who can be blunt honest without sounding like a bitch or thinking she's better than you.

We talked about our circle of friends and how everything is changing. Heading in a direction that we're both not okay with.

I don't know, there is only so much I can do on my end of the friendship, if you feel like you don't know me - then do something! It's hurtful and fucked up to make me feel like the bad guy. I've always reached out to all my friends, maybe not daily but I do make it a point.

'Friends" only seem to come to me when they break up. I'll be your shoulder, but fuck, I'm sore and what about me? I can count on a handful of people...actually the number doesn't constitute as a hand. How sad.

I hate feeling selfish and honestly, not much in my life is going on for me to whine about but even if there were, I would probably keep it inside. You know- I wouldn't want to interrupt your life.

Censor.

Sometimes, I think I need duct tape over my mouth or my hands.

I don't mean to ever be hurtful or rude but I've never been one to keep it inside of me. I speak the truth and I know I can't expect everyone can handle it with grace.

It's unfortunate, and I need to stop being blunt. I guess a part of me does it in hopes that people will be the same with me. But sometimes, I feel like people walk on eggshells around me. I may not agree with what you say but I appreciate honesty.

At times, I just hate when someone thinks they're 100% right, or they're use to getting things their way. Usually then, I thrive to knock them on their ass.

Kiddo.

Discovery.

Goofy

No Reasoning Needed

motherfucker.

today is gonna be the day
that they're gonna throw it back to you
by now you should've somehow
realized what you gotta do
i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do about you now.

backbeat the word was on the street
that the fire in your heart is out
i'm sure you've heard it all before
but you never really had a doubt
i don't believe that anybody feels
the way i do about you now

& all the roads we have to walk along are winding
& all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would
like to say to you
but i don't know how

because maybe
you're gonna be the one who saves me?
& after all

you're my wonderwall

today was gonna be the day?
but they'll never throw it back to you
by now you should've somehow
realized what you're not to do
i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do
about you now

& all the roads that lead to you were winding
& all the lights that light the way are blinding
there are many things that i would

like to say to you
but i don't know how

i said maybe
you're gonna be the one who saves me ?
& after all

you're my wonderwall

Just Do It.