The Friend Who Cried.."I'm Sorry"

I don't like to lead a life filled with hate or resentment but I am feeling a little overwhelmed with the bad stuff today. I am thinking about the words "I am sorry".


People think things can be fixed with a simple "I'm sorry". The kicker is that most of the time, this lame explanation comes without any growth or substance from the guilty party. It is simply a way to get out out of being the bad guy. The sad thing is that a mistake is supposed to be something we learn from. We are all human, we are all going to make both big and small mistakes, but to me "I'm sorry" means, I DID NOT realize at the time that this would hurt/upset/cause stress for you and I regret that it happened and I will do my best to not do this thing again. It makes me seriously bummed when I see people making the same mistakes over and over again in life and expecting me to always accept their apology. "Sorry" was never ment to be your trip past go to collect 200 bucks and start the circle again. It is supposed to be starting point for a change in behavior.



I'M ANNOYED. It's not even a big deal, it's the PRINCIPLE. I think that at this time in my life, I am surround by a shitload of bad friends. Friends who are very selfish and generally not good friends. Some not even good people! I'm being poisoned and I have to cut myself loose. I have never been so annoyed over something so small but it an accumulation of things. I can't tolerate it. People need to think about why they're my friends and take a look in the mirrors. As a matter of fact, I'm just done.

This morning, I woke up and felt good. My road to recovery starts now. Once again, I'm the one who needs to leave. It's fine, I love reinvention and self-discovery.