I finally finished my room. Well actually the only thing left to do is get pictures for the wall strip. THEN, I'll be done! Woot! I love my room. It's so different from before. Fresh start.
I was realizing today that my easy going attitude has been taken advantage of lately. I know I don't necessary get mad as much as I probably should. I joke around being pissed off at my friends a lot but I'm never been mad at anyone. Trust me, you'll know when I'm mad. I haven't been mad...in years. To be completely honest. But I guess lately, my patience has been pushed. I spent years being mad over something that in the end wasn't worth it. So I really don't sweat the small stuff. I guess the small jabs at me by my friends have been the tipping stones.
The "hipster" calls especially. I don't know why it bothers me so much but it does. I'm not a hipster, you wanna see a hipster? Hang out with my friend Chris in Boston. Or hang out with most of the kids in the music industry school at Northeastern....yeah, those are hipsters. Apparently, I can't walk around wearing a fedora or listen to punk bands. Also, my "hipster" side comes out with I'm drunk? Oh really? Yeah, it fucking annoys me. Because I know half the shit being said isn't really coming from her but her boyfriend. A boy that happens to want to beat the shit out of one of my best guy friends and never makes an effort to know her friends. I don't understand those kinds of relationships. If I ever get in a relationship again, and decide to lock myself away with the guy from all social contact and only come out when he goes away, someone shoot me. I think the final straw came yesterday when I was being made fun of because my favorite band split. Me and other 14 year olds would have to deal with apparently. Fuck that, yeah I know a majority of their fans are younger than me. But how they appreciate their music and how i appreciate their music is a completely different level. Stop judging me when especially you of ALL PEOPLE know I never judge your lifestyle or decisions. I'm not a fucking hipster because I play around with fashion and I'm not a hipster because I don't only listen to Top 40 Hits music. My exploration in fashion, music, artists, art, and different parts of our cultures will make me a better writer in the end.
Besides that, there has been several instances from various people pushing my generosity. I think I also been taking it out on my mother in hopes to avoid confrontation between anyone else. However, I do believe that if I do hear another comment like the ones recently...I will be forced to react.
I feel better just ranting on here. I know it's nothing serious.
I have to sleep now. I've been thinking about the boy a lot today. And no, it's not the right one. But, maybe, just maybe...this time I'll know better.
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