Wish List

"I am learning that there are things in life worth fighting for.
Then there are times where it is okay to fail.
You are one of the things on my list.
I swore I would love you forever, and I failed."

I'm civil. I care more than I let on. It'll never make sense to me. I hate failing on the one thing I knew I was good at. I was good at loving you, I was perfect actually. I never had a doubt. I put my everything, sometimes too much, in you and I still came out empty-handed. I wonder what that says about the rest of me? I'm not good at a lot of things. I'm okay at a bunch of things. I want to be spectacular at one thing. I wanted that "one thing" to be you. But I'm learning that the "one thing" needs to be me. Let me be spectacular.