Actually...

I really like this idea. Damn Jenn, for putting it my mind. Haha, I also like the idea of it being on my hip. Ugh, I need to get this one finally removed though. I have another session in December schedule, another $150 down the drain.

I hate being broke and I hate how I have debt on my credit cards. I'm slowly paying them off but literally, my bank account is at the lowest it's ever been. I can't handle that. I know I can't go out so seriously, that's the biggest reason as to why I've been home so much. I simply cant afford shit right now. My mom keeps offering my money but I don't feel right accepting any of it. She's helping me with school and I already have her giving me money for food.

Plus, I know Christmas is coming up, and well that's always a tight time in the house. I never grew up getting any sort of extravagant gifts. I don't know what thats like. I get basics. I remember growing up, I would expect a lot but when I look at some people now, my "big" gifts is they're minimal. I'm as much of a brat to say that I'm jealous. But I also know that it's not about that. It's the materialistic side of me. I made my actual Christmas list this morning for my mom and I let her know some of the stuff on it. I always put about 30 stuff, I get at least one thing from each person. I have to make a list or I receive clothes from Epic...

The "REAL" Christmas List

1. A Sterling Silver Cross
2. Borders Gift Card
3. iTunes Gift Card
4. PS3
5. Forever 21 Gift Card
6. Fujifilm J38 FinePix 12.2 Megapixel Digital Camera - Black

Books

1. "Miss O'Dell: My Hard Days and Long Nights with The Beatles, The Stones, Bob Dylan, Eric Clapton, and the Women They Loved"

2. "In Vogue: The Illustrated History of the World Most Famous Fashion Magazine"

3."A Cultural History of Fashion in the Twentieth Century: From the Catwalk to the Sidewalk"

4. "Vogue Fashion: Over 100 years of Style by Decade and Designer, in association with Vogue"

DVDS

1. Freaks and Geeks - The Complete Series (It's only 1 season)
2. Sex and the City, The Complete Season
3. "Friends" - Season 5-10
4. Star Trek
5. Transformers 2
6. Knocked Up Special Edition (it's a green cover)
7. Anchorman
8. The OC - The Complete Series
9. Iron Man