I Always Deserved More

"it seems like we’ve been dancing this dance of an on and off romance for years beyond years and i’m starting to think maybe, just maybe i should finally conquer my fears and realize we’ll never stay on when the light is always off, at least in your heart. in mine, it still swells very much for you and what we have — what we had, what i’m always hoping for more of, and what there may never really be no matter how much i keep holding on. but my insides, they’re very tired, and although these bones will always ache for you, i need my heart to be happy — to feel alive again, to feel like it’s beating for a reason. and if the reality is that we’re never going to be what we used to be, then maybe the reason can’t be you, anymore. maybe i deserve someone new."