The Day After Tomorrow

I saw him last night.

& he looked SOOOO good! He is very very shy. I told the stories numerous times today. I don't know if I can repeat it. He makes me so giddy. I hate it but love it at the same time. 

At least I know he doesn't think I'm crazy and rather steer clear of me. And I'm pretty sure his friends love me. =) 2 points.

Lauren is having a party tonight. I'm excited for it. Now, I'm more anxious. There is a chance that Gatsby will show up. I decided to invite him through FB and he texted me before asking about and said they might come. OH MY GOD! 

My thanksgiving break is turning out pretty decent. Thank you God =)

I'm ready to make some memories. <3

New York Groove

I am home.

I am sick.

I am going to Deanna's Bar.

......Gatsby is going as well.

HOLY SHIT! IM NERVOUS!

I don't believe I'll see him until I see him.

I am so nervous.

I don't look slutty enough for his attention. 

I want to kiss him again.

Pray to God, this is a good night. 

Either way, whatever happens, a good night, please?

After this weekend, I really need to have hope again.

Here I go.

Guilty Pleasure

I HATE MY MATH TEACHER! DAMN YOU JOAN CAMPBELL!!!

She decided to make a quiz on Tuesday and I practically can't miss it. I missed one, I bombed another and another one I got 68. So those my three quizzes that I can drop. She said she might have 11 quizzes and so I can drop 4. I mean if I finish all my homework, which I most definitely will! 

Anyways, it up to Caroline if she wants to leave Monday night. I really could care less because I know I'll be so depressed if I have to stay around here until Tuesday because of this class. 

My Journalism teacher asked who was going to be around, she doesn't care too much whether we miss it or not I can tell. I only missed one class with Journalism. 

Ugh, Im happy this semester is almost over. I haven't done astounding as I had hoped. I guess a lot of stuff hasn't planned out as I hoped. I'm not failing any class. Well actually I don't know how History is turning out but I hope that I do well on the final and TERM PAPER! Shit, I kinda just remembered that. 

I need a good concert to make me feel happy again. Jumping around, sweating to good beats. I love it. 

Okay, maybe I'll do the homework now. Ugh. I'm not cut out for this. 

Have Some Composure

I have just discovered a deadly site. FBR-Trash. I'm not going on it again. I legit fell into it. I was typing something that has to do with Fueled By Ramen and suddenly I was on this site. 

HOLY FUCKING SHIT! People are fucking crazy. Well these fans are. Like legit, the shit on this shit was crazy. Half of them are claiming to have fucked half these boy banders. Whoa whoa whoa. I dig the music like legit but I am not delusion. That shit just sucks you in. I never heard of it or the slash shit. I'm not even going to check it out. 

I like my musicians like my actors, I don't know two shit about them just the art they produce. I need to leave it now before I get sucked into teeny bopper world. 

Caroline has made me a much more productive person. I joined yearbook and CUP and I actually do my work. Well sorta. 

I can't live with someone like Anna. I just want to be lazy always. I see that she gets to sleep late and not do anything and I crave for it. So I mimic and unfortunately I have a real major with real classes. I look forward to being busy next semester. 

I can't have too many moments alone to browse the internet..or I end up on sites like FBR-T. Oh god, I'm scarred. 

Thanksgiving is next week. Unfortunately I am pretty depressed about it because I haven't lost weight. I had planned out and I just never followed it. It's not even about Gatsby anymore. I gave him up. But this is for myself. I need to lose the weight for my 21st. 

I saw pictures of Kim on Facebook from Miguel's birthday. She looked gorgeous and so tiny! Props to her for being healthy. I mean I hope she's doing it the healthy way. It makes me sad because Hairo is with her now and even though I don't want to be with him in slightest, I makes me jealous that he is with a prettier girl. It's hard to explain.

Well I plan on going to the gym with Remi at 11. I have a 5 page paper to write and another one to rewrite. I know I can do it. I just have to get on doing it. I need addreal. It's terrible for me to say that. I'm going to ask Rem about it. She knows the deal. It might help with all my problems...

No pictures tonight. I'm not a fucking stalker. 

I Can Be Anything You Want

I'm watching The Notebook. Never fails to make me believe in love again. I want someone to challenge me. I want me to have someone make me lie under the street lights and feel safe enough that a car won't come and we won't die. Hah. 

A relaxing weekend. Just what I needed.

I protested against Prop 8 today at City Hall. I felt powerful being part of something like that. The inner hippie in me. Everyone deserve the right to love whomever they may choose.

Hey, Noah Calhoun, I think I've been patient enough.

Bill and Trav's Bogus Journey

The Academy Is... on Wednesday?!

I think so! Woot!

Stay Together For The Kids

I'm bored out of my mind at work. I should start some homework. 

I've been doing better with my eating. I don't feel disgusting.

Tonight, the girls and I are going to get sushi at the Prud. Should be fun! I love Caroline. We get along so well and it's just easy. I'm really glad that I met her.

I woke up this morning with no roomie. But I also woke up late so I had no time to wonder. I came home after my class and found cups a

nd shit all over the place. She had been drinking since her midterm and was running around wild with her other Russian friends. In math, she started calling Caroline, telling her to come over and drink. It just kinda pisses me off because I really don't want to deal with another alcoholic roommate like Jessica Fitts.

Caroline's roommate is moving out and I am so tempted to take her place. I feel like I'll just constantly be over her place now. Which I think she really wants anyways.

Next year, we're totally rooming together.

I found out that the drummer of Claudio's band knows William Beckett. OH MY GOD! How I wish I knew this better. The Academy Is... is playing here at the Roxy next Wednesday. If I have no plans because I feel like that might be the night of the hockey game, I'm so going to this show. Sam is down for it. Thank god for having friends that listen to the same shit as I do.

I wish I had a boy. It's lonely. 

Oh, Marshall. You're too hott for my well-being. Brendon, you have competition.

Daring, Darling

I'm watching the Lion King right now. It's insanely sad. And racist.

Oy, my life. 

I should be doing more homework but it sucks.

I did some math homework and other shit. But I need to do more now. 

But there are people here and it's hard to concentrate.

I kinda just want to sleep now.

The Academy Is... is performing here next week and I kinda want to go but I doubt anyone will go with me. I think it would just be fun. Ya know.

I'm in love with Marshall now. I need to meet him now. 

Arrarraa

I'm done now. Goodnight. I'm adding more pics to my blogs.

When you use your lips, they better be on me

I've been out of the loop. I did not know the different verison of Live Your Life. I just bought it on iTunes and the video. Because T.I. is that sexy. 

I also bought Cab videos and Fall Out Boy song What A Catch,Donnie. Which is a good song. 

Anyways, Halloween was tons of fun! I was a sexy cop? No just a cop. I don't know how to be sexy. So me and the girls went to a BU sorority party and it was fun. Chris and Greg were Djing and good times all around. 

Then Adrian got into a fight and these bitches went crazy and told us to get the fuck out. Whatever, but it sucked because they threatened to not pay Chris which is so fucked up. 

We left and stuck in BU area because it was late and the T wasn't running and we didn't have enough to cover a ride back. It was cold and everyone was tired. We ended up at a supermarket and waited around for a bit.

Chris called eventually and wanted us to go to his house, when he got there. But everyone was tired and just wanted to go home. Of course, Anna didnt. 

She's obsess with him and that's fine but don't put us through it. It was late and everyone was tired. So we left. 

I got home and only had a hour until I had to leave for the bus. So I didn't really sleep. I made it in time for the bus and got into NY on time thank god.

I was home Saturday. I saw High School Musical 3 with my sister. GOOD MOVIE! I feel childish for saying it but it was really good. Then I went to the mall with Jennie and Deanna. Then we visited Lauren and Lindsay. Then we went to a frat halloween party.

 But it blew. So we left kinda early and I was so tired already. I drove around all day and didn't get gas money or even an offer to drive which is kinda of annoying. 

Lindsay kind of pissed me off. She's really not a best friend anymore. We're just too different.

SUNDAY WAS PANIC! Oh my god, such a good concert. Jennie, Jenn, Lauren and I went to the concert which was in Jersey. At the Prud. It was great. Those girls I'll always love.

 The Cab performed. I'm IN LOVE with Marshall. Ian too! They were good. 

Plain White T's played too. I was kinda of dreading them but they were really good. The lead singer has a good voice. 

Dashboard Confessional was the co-headliner. Chris never cease to amaze me! He is phenomenal!

Panic, of course, was fabulous! I love Brendon so much. He was so much fun. I want to see them again on their own tour and the same with Dashboard and The Cab.

God, I love shows.

It good I saw them so my fantasies leave Gatsby for good. I just watch the videos over and over again from the concert and look at pictures, haha. 

I learned how to block numbers on my phone. Bye, bye Hairo.

I've been so dead this week. I need to get on my shit. Fuck me. I need to write my essays better. My grade looks like shit right now. I really don't want to find out that I'm a shitty writer. 

That would suck a lot.

Just live your life.