Crazy/Beautiful

There are millions of people out there. But in the end it all comes down to one. I still panic sometimes, forget to breathe. But I know there’s something beautiful in all my imperfections. A beauty in which he held out for me to see, a strength that can never be taken away. 

Don't Stop Believing

Yeah....Could I?

So yes, we could kiss. I could kiss you and you could kiss me. There's no science, plane ticket or clock stopping us. But if we kiss, it will end the world. And I've ended the world before. No one survived. Least of all me.

All Again For You

This is the acceptance speech. The end of anger and denial. I accept that you and I will never be the same again. That while those days will live in my mind forever, they're over. I hate it. But I accept it. And I'm moving on now.

Hello Darling

Jonathan

You were the first nice guy I met after so many bad ones. And I didn’t know if you were the one or just the first good one, so I went out and met some more guys. Some of them were fine, but none of them were you. —  Men In Trees

Well, This is VERY True

Why?

I Dont Wanna Wait

 See, there this guy… And when I met him, it was like… Like a shade going up in a dark room and light suddenly pouring in. He understood me in a way that no one ever did or could. And then, just as suddenly, the room got dark again. — Dawson’s Creek

Time To Pretend

I wish that I could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.

I think I misread everything. I feel like I’m getting really good at setting myself up to be disappointed. Things that I want to happen never will. Things that I need to happen won’t. I am riddled with mistakes, trials and errors, but I can’t for the life of me figure out what’s right yet. I need to stop falling. Silly me, thinking someone would catch me. I want to say that I’m done playing the fool, but I also know I’ll say that another million times again before the fool in me finally disappears.

I Always Love This Quote

The Holiday

What did she feel? Did she love him, or did she feel nothing at all for him or for any other man, being, as she had said that afternoon, free, like the wind or the sea? — Virginia Woolf

Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants

"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: ‘What! You too? I thought I was the only one."

— C.S. Lewis

Retro

A Brand New Day Has Begun

The Light Slipped Through The Window

You know what’s wrong with us? You are. You build us up. You make us feel like we have a chance. You make us feel special, and then when we don’t expect it, you knock us down. And you don’t even realize (or care) that you have just crushed us in this way… In a way that you feel it from the deepest part of your chest. You feel everything inside of you crumble and its all you can do to keep it all at bay. To not let it overflow and pour out. Here’s the thing: we don’t let people into our beds without letting them into our hearts. We don’t let people into our guarded worlds without letting them into our hearts. We don’t let people in… we don’t let you in without giving you this part of ourselves that no one else has. A part that we don’t give very often, if ever. Of course we’ll lie about what we’re feeling; why would you want to be the only person in this letting down guards? Why would you want to be the only person hurting? You fake a smile. You fake making it. You fake it because its easier to pretend that nothing hurts. Its easier to pretend that you didn’t love this person. Its easier to pretend that the sweet moments, the sweet words, the longing, the wishing, the hoping all along the way was nothing more than something we made up because we all know its better to be delusional than lied to. Don’t worry though, eventually we’ll move on and you’ll be nothing more than a faded memory.

Kissed By A Rose

I'm sure people just kiss each other.

 I'm sure that sometimes you're talking 

& somehow two people move closer 

& closer to each other and then, they just kiss.

 I'm sure it happens all the time. 

But I'm also sure that a kiss is never just a kiss.

SO TRUE

Waiting Game

Head Over Feet

"life, i really believe, is about falling in love. with ideas, with stories, with experiences, mistakes, adventures, poetry, imaginations, old books, new books, movies, music, and, of course, people. everything that is worthwhile in this world is worth falling in love with, and i can’t imagine a better way to live one’s life than to be always head over heels."

I wanna believe that everything I do in my life is full of passion. Even just dancing at a party or singing off key to a cheesy pop song. I throw everything I have into it, even when I shouldn't...

You Could Be Anywhere When Your Life Begins

When you meet someone, millions of things can happen after that moment. Whether or not they become a pillar in your life or just someone you met once, or they stay in your life for years on end or just for a moment, sometimes the factors don’t matter.

It can take a lifetime of memories, or even just a split second glance as you walked by them on the street.

Whether or not you ever knew them, sometimes you just don’t forget someone.

Free Falling

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

This is why I'm so fucking scared to really ever fall for someone else. It's a free fall and I'm scared I wont make it out alive for the second time. 

They Screwed It Up For All Little Girls

I Got Sunshine On a Cloudy Day

Vada: "Weeping willow with your tears running down, why do you always weep and frown? Is it because he left you one day? is it because he could not stay? On your branches he would swing, do you long for the happiness that day would bring? He found shelter in your shade. You thought his laughter would never fade. Weeping willow, stop your tears. There is something to calm you fears. You think death has ripped you forever apart. But I know he'll always be in your heart. "

Relient K - "Must Have Done Something Right"

The Fray - "You Found Me"

John Mayer - "Say"

MGMT - "Electric Feel"

Regina Spector - "Samson"

Andy Shauf - "Your Heart"

Jason Mraz - "I'm Yours"

You'll Never Get Through It Without Your Friends

You Never Had A Friend Like Me

I had to read this one over a few times to really grasp what it means. 

Change the Her -- To Him...

Talking Straight

Here’s my theory on men and women. When a man meets a woman he decides withing around thirty seconds whether or not he finds her attractive. If he doesn’t, they become friends. If he does, they might become friends, but the potential for them to become lovers never quite goes away. When a woman meets a man she decides within around thirty seconds whether or not she finds him attractive. Even if she doesn’t, they become friends, but at any given point in their relationship she could fall in love with him. She could fall in love with him because he’s kind, sensitive, and he makes her laugh. Because she grows up and realizes the sexual attraction is not the be-all and end-all to life. Because she finally realizes that she deserves a nice guy. That nice guys aren’t all boring. That sometimes they do wonders for your ego, that sometimes they’re just what you need.

— Straight Talking

Sex and the City

Carrie: It's hard to find people who will love you no matter what. I found three of them. 

EDT: I found 6. <3

Carrie: No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends.

Carrie: When it comes to relationships, maybe we're all in glass houses, and shouldn't throw stones. Because you can never really know. Some people are settling down, some are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less. Than butterflies...

Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.

Mr. Big: After a while, you just want to be with the one that makes you laugh.

Mr. Big: You girls are the loves of her life, a guy is lucky to come in fourth

EDT: 7TH

This show is my life.

i get by with a little help from my friends

"what defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming."

— Unknown

...Hope....

My Therapy

I'm Struggling Against It Everyday

Story of My Life

This Is What I Believe

Fucking Interesting As Hell

Sunday

Why Can't We Be Friends

 I wish he meant it when he kissed me, 

because then I could look back & remember someone who loved me. 

Now I can only look back & realize someone used me.

I don’t regret loving you. I only regret believing that you loved me too.

 

I have wasted thousands of kisses on you… 

kisses that I thought were special because of your lips 

& your smile & all your color & life. 

I used to think that was the real you, when you smiled. 

But now I know you didn’t mean any of it. 

You just save it all for your songs. 

Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tight.

Being brokenhearted is like having broken ribs. 

On the outside it looks like nothing’s wrong, 

but every breath hurts. 

Every Jilted Girls' Heart

 It’s not okay that you hurt me, but I am okay. 

I deserve more, & I know that now.

 & maybe you knew that inside, that you couldn’t give me that yet. 

So you set me free. We would’ve been so great, you would never have wished for more

 than I would’ve given you. But you never gave it a chance. 

So now you’ll never know what could’ve been. 

Maybe someday you’ll regret it,

 maybe someday you’ll think it was the best decision you ever made,

 but maybe someday you’ll see me walking, smiling & happy, 

alongside someone who’s also smiling and happy because he has my heart. 

Maybe then you’ll stop & realize what you’re missing, 

because someday, someone is going to thank you for letting me go…

This Is Still Me

I hated the person he had become…the person that loved me then changed. 

Changed into someone who left me in ruins.

 As I hated the person he became, why do I love him still?

 Maybe it is the memory of the happy times of what I know is still there.

 Or maybe I just don’t want to admit I cared so much more than he ever could.

Matchbook Romance

To Love & Be Loved

I've learned...

By Omer B. Washington

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people,
It’s what they do about it that matters.
I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.
I’ve learned that you should always talk to loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you’ll see them.
I’ve learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don’t know how to show it.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they’re going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may influence who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.
I’ve learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.
I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned that writing,
as well as talking,
can ease emotional pains.
I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve learned to love
and be loved.

Oh, Those Summer Nighaaaits!

 

i want warm summer nights, to lie in a hammock, staring at the stars, telling you stories. i want to dip my toes in the water, to dangle my feet off the edge of the dock and sit leaning forward, looking at you, laughing. to huddle around a fire on the beach, salt water drying into my hair, reading from that book you always carry. i want to sit next to you on a log and sleep next to you in a tent. i want to wake up early and make pancakes over a fire, to wash the dishes in the river while we swim. to build sandcastles and castles-in-the-air. i want to drive home with my bare feet on the dashboard, the windows down, my hair whipped in every direction from the wind rushing through open windows. i want to hear your voice shouting the lyrics to the songs on the radio that you don’t know the words to. i want to be able to look at you and smile and not say a word. to have adventures and passion and to truly live. to truly love.

Ditto

"i haven’t posted a “real” entry in awhile. now to think of it, i don’t think any of my text entries have been full of any substance, just random emotions to a “you,” a person that shall remain nameless. but i figure that the point of having a blog is to somewhat talk about my life happenings.

well first things first, i live in new york city- and it’s supposed to be the place where things are poppin’ and whatnot. i, for one, am lacking that appeal so far. it’s only june, and i have no mind blowing stories to tell yet. i guess the keyword is yet. i know i want to make this summer kickass, it’s just the process of getting there. ain’t that always the issue.

—

i really hope i get out of this slump for my own sake and start doing productive things with my life and going out there & actually meeting new people. "

500 Days of Summer

So I was searching through the blogworld and I stumbled upon someone's summer to-do list. It struck me that it felt somewhat necessary to compile one and to try my hardest to accomplish my goals. I'm not going to have anything related to school so much. Besides apply for fall internships. They kill me. Anyways, so I'm going to start it and I might add more as time goes on but this is my initial start:

1. Go Skydiving

2. Learn Guitar

3. Learn Piano

4. Camping

5.  Go to John Lennon Exhibit

6. Go to Woodstock Exhibit

7. Redo Bedroom

8. Run 2 Miles Straight

9. Earn Money

10. Hang out with Joe and Edwin

11. Get a new license picture

12. Learn to skateboard

13. Beach 3x AT LEAST

14. Finish the ART OF SEDUCTION

15. Read at least 5 new books

16. Spend a weekend or at least day in Montauk

17. City - ALL NIGHT adventure - Nick and Norah's esque

18. Drive out to Montreal

19. Go to a Yankee Game

20. Fix My Tattoos

EDT: For Jennie

21. Get Cruel Intentions from Theresa 

22. Get Yellow Umbrella Back

23. Read the 4 books next to bed

Combine List

24. Go Horse Back Riding

25. Go to Yankee-Met Game

Goodbye Girl

Chuck Bass: I was a coward running away again.

 But everywhere I went, you caught up with me, 

so I had to come back.

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(516): Dating is not our generation's strong point. We're an era that's good at getting laid