And You Don't

Barnes and Noble

Need To Do This More.

It Is Impossible.

"more often than not, i fall in love with the possibility — the possibility of you catching my gaze, the possibility of accidentally bumping into each other, the possibility of feeling electricity the moment our skin touches, the possibility of you asking what my name is, the possibility of you romantically inviting me out by disguising with the words “we should hang out”, the possibility of my heart beating faster the moment you’re near, the possibility of you holding my hand, of you whispering into my ear, of you telling me all the sweet nothings a girl like me would want to hear, the possibility of you meaning every word, every look, every action hinting towards a possibility of there being an us, the possibility of you and i falling harder than we’ve ever fallen before, the possibility that it could lead to more, much more than we could ever imagine, the possibility that this is it and you’re the one.

the possibility is all i need sometimes to keep me on my toes, to keep me from closing up, to keep me positive that this could very well happen with the next guy that walks into my life. of course, i don’t really know that for sure, but i don’t really know that it won’t happen either. but i know that there’s always a chance."

Moth Wings.

Laying It All Out There.

NBA Champs

Nights of Us.

CANT WAIT.

Thats Why I Stopped Taking Pics.

Eastbound and Down

Hotel For Pets.

Take Me Out To The Ballgame.

"You will try to run and he will let you but he will be standing exactly where you left him when you went ahead and lost your mind, not because he has nowhere else to be or because he’s a pushover, but because he understands that you are worth waiting for. And you are, not because he proved it to you, but because he gave you the time to realize it for yourself."

-Anaïs Escobar

Monogamist?

I've done the merry go round,
I've been through the revolving door,
I feel like I met somebody I can stand still with for a minute
...and don't you wanna stand still with me?

I'm So Jaded.

Hot and Cold.

"You Have No Idea..."

"...how boring everything was before I met you."

Never Again.

FB Friends.

"You Only Like Her Cause She's A Hooker?"

BBM My Heart.

Click Heels Home

Bondage.

Time To Whip Out The Heels

This Is For Jennie

Enrrrrrrrrrique!

Closing Chapters

"often times we search for closure in the wrong places, but once in awhile we find it right where we weren’t looking — mostly because it wasn’t the kind we were looking for, it wasn’t the kind we wanted, it wasn’t the kind that would leave us satisfied in a way closure is supposed to leave us satisfied. because it goes against all you’ve ever believed and all the effort you made and it makes you feel like it wasn’t worth it at all. and we always want to feel like at the very least we did all we could to make it worth it, but that’s not always the case and when that happens, regrets add up and you start to feel like nothing will ever make up for every chapter that goes unfinished except maybe keeping the idea in your head of what could have been .. instead of just writing it off as the end even though that’s really what it is but you’ll never want to admit it because there’s still going to be a little part of us that wants to leave some of those doors cracked open for re-openings and comebacks with hope that things might finally change or finally go your way. but most of the time they never do and this is how we come up with the closure we’re never given — by having to give it to ourselves even though that’s the last thing we ever wanted to do because all along, we’ve just been secretly waiting, waiting too long for something that may never come, from someone who’s been long gone, both in distance and in time. there will come a point where we can’t wait anymore. and for that i’m still waiting, because i want nothing more than to write this ending and to finally write him off of my skin, out of my mind and out of my heart."

Look Who Got All GQ

Nowhere Boy

I'm actually really excited for this because it looks good. Lennon is not my favorite Beatle but he is the most interesting.

The Girl's Guide To Fishing And Hunting

“It scares me how fast I go from disliking to loving him, and I wonder if it’s this way for everyone.”

Except tonight it went the opposite way. And I have no doubt it will change back again once I give in and forgive (most likely for no good reason, but the fact that I can’t help fall for him again and again). And because of this, it constantly amazes me how many excuses we will make just to keep ourselves alive — just to keep our hearts thumping loud and clear. Just to keep someone that’s so out of reach near. Even though it’s apparent they don’t even want to be here.. and you know it, but you just can’t let go.

(Just let go.)

Balance

SHOES.

FlavorToGo

ReggieBush.

We're Like A Light Switch

Frugal.

So, I Stopped Trying.

JERK.

Always, No Worries.

Enough Said.

Don't Call Me, My Phone Is On Vibrate...

"Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too."

-Lemony Snicket, “Horseradish: Bitter Truths You Can’t Avoid"

I Need You Closer

Letters to BIG

Today did not start off well. It started off at 3 am, in confusion. Around 8am, I threw up...twice. Then I walked out my door 20 mins later to a disgusting,cold day. I just wanted to crawl back in the sheets with my cat. But I went to work, a few minutes late, and acted as a zombie. I couldn't shake the thoughts from my head and I was shoving my face with crap, so body-wise I wasn't feeling better. But then I decided that I couldn't continue with the nonsense. I knew exactly what was making me so glum and it was ridiculous. I decided to shake it off, as I've done before, and remember what truly makes me happy. I came home, went for a run, did a little bit a pampering to shake me off the "oh woe is me" mood and wrote a letter to old friend. The letter was just a way to try to clear some tension in my life, doubtful the response will ever come but God knows I've tried. I know I became a much better person in the end, and I really don't need justification. I just tried to be mature....but let's look at who I'm dealing with. Anyways, what I'm getting at is that I am at a better place. I use to wallow in self-pity for days on end over something very miniscule. I sorta hated myself for even allowing myself to be upset for the amount of time that I was. It was silliness. I got it going good, why must I try to create drama out of nothing? That's other people I know.

Feathers!

Hump Day Sucked.

I Want Her Jacket

Garters

SELFish

May 27th

“Maybe there are no right moments, right guys, right answers, maybe sometimes you just have to say what’s in your heart.”

-Sex and the City

My Chick Is Bad

The Green Mile

Resolution Update.

So back on my Resolutions:

I secured a Co-Op a few weeks ago so I fulfilled my May resolution. I was afraid I wouldn't have one until a week before July! But luckily, I got one and I actually already started it.  I'll go more into it after my second week.

I didn't fulfill my April resolution (lose 15 lbs) in fact I think I gained. But this is going to carry over until I fulfill my goal! I'm looking for an end of June deadline.

Also, I decided to delete my other blog (on Tumblr) I was never on it and I just didn't do it. I think I will just keep with this blog, be more professional i.e. add more commentary on movies and more professional entires. I'll still keep up with my images, quotes, and etc but more substance I guess. This kinda goes with the fact that so far I'm really like the PR world, so Im not as concern with my writing samples anymore.

Today was a good day, got some AMAZING news about the end of June and I got a job today at this super cute fashion boutique in Farmingdale. Ugh, life is pretty damn good. Even when boys can't follow through...

Undefinition.

TomCats

You won't hear my voice.
You won't know where I am.
You won't get an answer to your late night crawling words.

because you don't deserve any of it, or any of me.



...and i learned to let go.




it was the hardest lesson of all.

Sway.

Say whatever you have to say, I'll stand by you.
Do whatever you have to do, to get it out and not become a reaction memory
To hurt the ones you love, you know you never meant to but you do

Be whoever you have to be, I won't judge you
Sing whatever you have to sing to get it out and not become a recluse about how to come out
I know you never meant to but you do

Still I need your sway, because you always pay for it
And I need your soul because you're always soulful
And I need your heart, because you're always in the right places

And take whatever you have to take, you know I love ya
come however you have to come, and get it out and get it out

Take it out on me, take it out on me
I'll give it you all, I give it you all, I give it
I give you all, I give it you all, yes I will give it you all

Cause I need your sway, because you always pay for it
And I need your soul because you're always soulful
And I need your heart, because you're always in the right places

Oh yes I will, I will give it you all

Still I need your sway, because you always pay for it
And I need your soul, because you're always soulful
And I need that heart, because you're always in the right places.

Bad Day

Solo Dolo

Unbelievable.

This Is My Problem.

“What should I do about the wild and the tame? The wild heart that wants to be free, and the tame heart that wants to come home. I want to be held. I don’t want you to come too close. I want you to scoop me up and bring me home at nights. I don’t want to tell you where I am. I want to keep a place among the rocks where no one can find me. I want to be with you.”

— Jeanette Winterson

Whipped Cream Vodka

Dirty Dancing

Daily Haiku

“When will the day come
where all the waiting will stop
and your heart is mine?”

Gilmores.

“what’s difficult is that no one really talks about this. everyone is so goddamn protective of their pride. but ill go ahead and talk about it. i will throw it out there in high hopes it will float. i’m so curious. is the concept of ‘unrequited love’ so depressing and boring that no one ever makes movies out of it? everybody gets to be together at least once. what if they don’t? what about the untold stories about the rest of us?”

Great Curves.

I Want Her Legs!

SummerLove

I Finally Learned This Lesson.