Hip-Sta

I downloaded both Vampire Weekend's albums. It's official. Now I just need some neon pants, uptowns, a sweater vest and some non-prescription glasses. Awesome.

Eh, they're in fact fun to listen to.

Sweet Hollow

Aurora Borealis

Damn Right.

Only A Few

Curiosity Killed Opportunity

Bucket List.

So I did a "front of book" piece for Mag. Journalism on the "Buried Life" and I thought about my list of things I want to do before I die. I have my goals for the year, but these are different...

1. Go To Peru
2. Build a House for someone else (Habitat for Humanity)
3. Attend a show during Fashion Week in NYC, Paris, or Milan (Obviously, NYC is more likely)
4. Road trip North and South route of the country.
5. Go to the Amazon
6. Write a book (of course, but it doesn't have to be published!)
7. Adopt a child
8. Knit a blanket, sweater, hat, or etc...
9. Stand on the Yankees home plate
10. See the Aurora Borealis 

Charlie

Catcher in the Rye

"What really knocks me out is a book, 

when you're all done reading it, 

you wished the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours 

and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it."

- Holden Caulfield

J.D. Salinger

"Among other things, 
you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused 

and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. 

 You're by no means alone on that score, 
you'll be excited and stimulated to know. 

 Many, many men have been just as troubled morally 
and spiritually as you are right now.

 Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. 

You'll learn from them - if you want to. 

 Just as someday, if you have something to offer, 
someone will learn something from you. 

 It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. 

 And it isn't education. 

 It's history. It's poetry." 

 ~The Catcher in the Rye

Game of Life.

8 YEARS.

I've constantly loved this man since I was 13/14 years old. The exact moment he came on the screen in LOTR, I was sold and no guy will ever compare. Terry Richardson took this photo, so that makes Orlando a bona fide hipster and even more perfect, we've evolved together. He's playing a rocker in his next picture by Mark Ruffalo, "Sympathy for Delirious." Oye vey Orly.

Really Fucked Up.

Underwhelmed.

I'm passive. Very passive. Nothing seems to effect me anymore. This is good and bad. Good in sense of what offensive things people tend to say to me (unknowingly or not) I'm not hurt. I'm no longer the baby that I use to be. So sensitive to the words of others. However, I'm passive when I come to stress, I figure everything will work itself out. I need the stress to perform above normal to pulse through my veins and push me for a higher bar. To be a better person.

Procrastination

LA Candy

Both have really cute styles but I do like Lauren's better.  Lo's wear a lot of black though, I kind of sway that way. Lauren is very SoCal so it be hard to pull it off. Just admire. I did pick up my little braids headband from her! The one thing I do love about her is her repetitional use of her quilted Chanel shoulder bag. I want one SO badly. I hope I get to meet her in a few weeks at the book signing.

Summer Roberts

I seriously L-O-V-E this girl's style. Acting is completely questionable (she nailed ditzy greatness on  The O.C. though). I need to embodied her. She's getting coffee and going to the grocery store like this...for me- it would have been a night out outfit. I want to do a 180 this year on how I present myself daily. I can't keep this slum going.

Eat Pray Love

I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.
— Elizabeth Gilbert

Holdin' On Together

New Moon.

I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach, we are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains, deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know — unless it be to share our laughter.


We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love.


For wanderers, dreamers, and lovers, for lonely men and women who dare to ask of life everything good and beautiful. It is for those who are too gentle to live among wolves.


— James Kavanaugh

Straylight Run

The Last Song.

Late Nights

Young Girls.

It's Never Logics

My Grave.

There is a large part of me that really, honestly believes that I was just not made for loving.



and it's sad.

Me Against The World

From Now On.

How to be Smarter: People worth being in relationships with will want to make you happy because they like you. If you are expressing what you want and need from a partner–in a cool, rational way–and not getting it, it may be time to move on.

Moulin Rouge

Gut Feelings

What's The One Thing You Want To Do Before You Die?

iPod

The World Should Revolve Around Me.

I want you to look at me like you've never looked at anyone else. I want you to look at me like I have something other girls don't.

Instant Classic

I Have Problems

I'm May Say It Was Your Fault

7AM BBMs

I Want You So Bad I'd Go Back On Things I Believe

This is very, VERY photoshop. But, he's sexy. Please, do not remind me of who he looks like. I rather not.

The Fear You Won't Fall.

Digging a hole and the walls are caving in behind me,

Air's getting thin but I'm trying.

I'm breathing in.

Come find me.

It hasn't felt like this before

It hasn't felt like home before you

And I know it's easy to say 

but it's harder to feel this way

And I miss you more than I should

Than I thought I could

Can't get my mind off of you.

I know you're scared that I'll soon be over it,

That's part of it all.

Part of the beauty of falling in love with you 

is the fear you won't fall.

It hasn't felt like this before

It hasn't felt like home before you

And I know it's easy to say 

but it's harder to feel this way

And I miss you more than I should

 than I thought I could

Can't get my mind off of you.

And I hate the phone,

But I wish you'd call.

Thought being alone was better than...

And I know it's easy to say 

but it's harder to feel this way

And I miss you more than I should

Than I thought I could

Can't get my mind off of you

I Always Knew.

All Nighters

En Vogue

I tried this one time and it didn't work. I want my Vogues back and attempt it again. Maybe in the bathroom?

Stop Trying.

Off The Record

Pretty Much.

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding."

— Anais Nin

How I Met Your Mother

"When you date someone,
it’s like you’re taking a class in them
and when you break up,
it’s like all that knowledge is useless.

It’s the emotional equivalent of an English degree."

I Got Your Back But...Do You Have Mine?

In the end, 

we will remember not the words of our enemies, 

but the silence of our friends.

-MLK Jr.

How To Be Lovely.

Terms of Endearment:

I criticize my generation for many things, many things that I can be guilty of. But the one thing that I cannot fathom is when "sweetie," "honey," or even "baby" was replaced with "hoe," "skank," or "bitch."

When someone talking to me and they slip one of these words, walk away- nothing you say further on is of interest.

Chivalry and etiquette is very much dead.

Every Girl Should Read this

That's All.

Future Studio Apartment

Tic Toc, You're LATE.

Always Guaranteed.

Poetry

I'm Learning =)

Conan O'Brien

Why He's Hot

Old Friends?

"I’ve had to say good-bye more times than I may have like, but everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we have to do it — even if it’s for the greater good, it still stings. And although we will never forget what we’ve given up, we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. What we can’t do is live our lives afraid of the next good-bye because chances are they are not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a good-bye can be a good thing — when it’s a chance to start again."

-Ugly Betty

This Is My Declaration

I declare here and now, no more entries on Courtney. Obvious or not in the past, no entries will be wasted on this scumbag.

Gaga

It’s possible you were just saving me from a bad romance.

So I guess a thank you is in order. I don’t appreciate the idea of it now, but I definitely will later when I’m okay again and realize this all happened for the greater good.

Going Out Now.

Remarkable

One Day.

Oh, Coco =(

Always The Case.

My Gut

Always trust your gut feeling

Seriously, I’m not kidding. I don’t care if everyone says "he’s a keeper" or "she’s the sweetest girl in the world"— if something feels wrong, then trust. Trust, trust, trust.

I know I wish I did.

The Person I Thought You Were

My Hiatus

Slow down you crazy child

You're so ambitious for a juvenile

But then if you're so smart tell me why

Are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?

You better cool it off before you burn it out

You got so much to do and only

So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told

That you can get what you want

Or you can just get old

You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through

When will you realize

Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine

You can't be everything you want to be

Before your time

Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight 

Too bad but it's the life you lead

You're so ahead of yourself

That you forgot what you need

Though you can see when you're wrong

You know you can't always see when you're right

You got your passion you got your pride

But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?

Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true

When will you realize

Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child

Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while

It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two

When will you realize...

Vienna waits for you.

White Oleander

"Everybody asks why I started at the end and worked back to the beginning, the reason is simple, I couldn't understand the beginning until I had reached the end. There were too many pieces of the puzzle missing, too much you would never tell. I could sell these things. People want to buy them, but I'd set all this on fire first. She'd like that, that's what she would do. She'd make it just to burn it. I couldn't afford this one, but the beginning deserves something special. But how do I show that nothing, not a taste, not a smell, not even the color of the sky, has ever been as clear and sharp as it was when I belonged to her. I don't know how to express the being with someone so dangerous is the last time I felt safe..."

"Don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you're lonely. Loneliness is the human condition. No one is ever going to fill that space. The best you can do is know yourself... know what you want."

"Remember it all; Every insult, every tear."

"Love humiliates you. Hatred cradles you."

"Stay away from broken people."

Oh, Savannah